Life is it worth it ?

Its not what you have done, but what has been done for you

Sometimes i miss the people i used to talk to. i know they could help me threw this >.> haha i don’t really feel like writing all the names so ill just put your initials           —————> D.P -S.B-M.V-W.L-H.B  yep you should know who you are :p

I actually believed you did

Now

BROKEN GLASS ! haha more blood on the floor than there is stuffing from that FUCKING DOG i loved so much. I hope you know there is no trace of you. The only thing that is keeping me from forgetting you is my heart. But soon I WONT EVEN FUCKING REMEMBER YOUR NAME. But thats what you want isn’t it. Yah just keep whoring around, well i guess i shoudnt remind you if your doing that any fucking how. You think you gave everything to me, how can you be so fucking self centered you dont think i gave anything for you that i never FUCKING LOVED YOU. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU, why would i waste almost 10 FUCKING MONTH ON YOU. Just to get at you? Yah you think that, if i wanted to get at someone that is worth the effort. But you were the only one i saw out of a sky filled with stars. You were the only one who stuck out only one i saw. 

Not giving a shit about what anyone thinks about you.THE BEST FUCKING DECISION I HAVE EVER MADE.Not being afraid of failing or rejection, or not caring if anyone laugh at you or you are going to get a bad rep. If someone hates me or is bothered by my presents FINE it doesn’t affect me they’er just putting on another burden on themselves. I’ve spent all my life thinking “I wonder if they liked me ” or ” I wonder if they are just going to laugh at me”, Haha today one of my best friends told me “dude what if people see you…” and GOD it felt so great to say ” I DONT GIVE A FUCK”   

why am I obsessing over you? I know it wont work out but I just cant stop myself from trying. I’m just going to end up hurting myself again, and over what, something that never was and never will be.